| | Current Music: | Mahna Mahna Bitches! | | Subject: | AA (not the batteries) | | Time: | 09:25 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/confused.gif) Thinking too damn much |
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| So tonight was a very profound and interesting one for me.
tonight i went to an AA meeting in dedham with a couple other kids from my class. the school thinks that its a good idea for everyone to go and see what its like i guess, and since im not the heaviest of drinkers it really didnt strike me that it would be that impacting on me. byy no means am i an alcoholic, and if you know me you know thats not the "ya i drink alot but its not big cuz its under control so im not one." im really not. I went in thinking that if i gain anything, it will be something about my dad, and what that whole thing is about.
so i went into this thing thinking that if any of them werent in a bar watchiong the game the would be a bunch of bums. downtrodden grimy people who looked half drunk already, and showed obvious signs of their addiction. they would all be in denial about being an alcoholic and some group discussion leader would guide the way and people will share pitiful stories about drinking thier families away and how the just want their kids back, and the judge to lay off. then all the other drunks would say its gonna be ok and they would all join hands and start on the path to happiness. more hugs tears and coffee would follow and after a final goodbye adress they would go on their different ways, some home, some to bars, others to nowhere.
i could not have been more wrong.
as we walked down the stairs i honestly thought i was in the wrong place. we turned up at bingo night by accident or something. but the big banner dashed this idea. the hall was filled with people. regular everyday people you'd see at the supermarket or at the train or something. the had nice clothes, looked fed, had homes. i was surprised. as the first speaker jeff walked up to the podium to start the meeting he said the prase i had been waiting for. "Hi I'm Jeff, and I'm an Alcohilic." Jeff started with some club business, and the introduced Jane the Alcoholic, Jane introduced Jeff again, and Jeff introduced Frank. All of them started the same way. they were alcoholics. Alcoholics who had been sober for a combined 105 years. Jeff 22 years, Jane 35 years, and Frank 48 years.
yet the still call themselves alcoholics?
everyday they are faced with the same temptation a person who has been sober for 12 hours does. that first drink.
they looked normal. their stories werent so normal. they had been trough the typical alcoholic stories, causing trouble, ruining relationships: alcohol took thier lives. but now they were better, happy. they had a new found appriciation for life; they took life from alcohol.
i left the church and walked out to the car, got in and started it up jsut like every other time ive been in the car. but as i pulled out i was scared. now, anyone who has driven with me knows im not a the shyest of drivers, and i usually fail to abide by the "laws" but on this ride i went the speed limit and drove carefully. craziness. it struck me that the AA members appriciate life, and somehow i had gotten this appriciation from them. it wasnt so much about drinking, but about life.
unfortunaly this profound realization faded on route 1 after i got cut off by some norwood punk. I rode his ass and then blew by his '89 camery in the right lane. he tried to follow and sped up as i slowed down to take a right, and two seconds after he blew by me, some blue and white lights flared up behind me as i took this turn. natural reaction "SHIT!" the cop pulls the kid over seemingly from out of no where. weird huh?
a sign for my little realization? whats it mean? just a coincidence?
Why is my life filled with symbols, dreams, and prophecies?
Where is my duck?
I dont have all the answers, but i thought id be something interesting for everyone to think about. ask me if you want some more details. stay tuned my dreams are up next...
and no they are ALL about risa...
just mostly... | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment   |
| well well well... slips is sitting here reading about life, and i thought id give you all a little lesson. you know words to live by.
"what do you think of when i say 'red'"- me
"fire." -pete.
just let it sink in. oh it tingles.
daddy likes.
I'm not on my A game today boys and girls. i learned this much today...||. Not alot huh. but hey i was distracted and tired.
what do they expect me to be thinkin about 4th period... math!? HA. i laugh. The rza is much more entertaining to think about :-O.
Booya.
anyway im off to see the ginger bread man so he can take charge whilst i turn and or cough.
yummy cant wait. hopefully the rza aint in my head. either or.
peace and love forever. on tweezy and bing back those old school pumps no and forever. ahmen. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Old school 7dust... oh the memories | | Subject: | MUSIC! | | Time: | 09:23 pm | | Current Mood: | pensive |
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| Ok so im in a super musical mood so im gonna ramble about it for a while here cuz i ccan and you cant stop me. if you dont like music then dont read on.
So basically i got musical nostalgia today when i heard the first band i ever loved and one of my favorite bands ever (sevendust) for the first time in almost a year. they were the first band i became obsessed with, dled alll their songs knew all the lyrics, the works. id never heard anything like them and i still havent. and this got me thinking. what bands that i hear today sound like nothing ive heard and nothing i will ever hear? bands in cirtain "genres" have started blending together for me, and some of these genres im about to run through...
What music is Good?
Not country, Not punk, NOT pop (no matter how hot britney or whoever is), Not emo. you can disagree im jsut stating my opinion.
Country is all the same girl left me pick up wont work dog left but dammit i love the usa. (no that thats a bad thing but too much of a good thing can be bad) and if you like it and you dont live in the country side or the south then you are either a hick or a poser. my money is on poser.
Punk isnt original. good music is original. the ramones were punk. the ramones were original. the ramones were good. you could throw all the members of blink 182 good charlet sum 41 sr 71 something corperate into a hat and pull out 5 names and you'd never be able to tell it was a different band. except travis from blink 182 hhes just nasty (but why still in blink? who knows)
Need i even get into pop? if you're old enough to read this you and you like pop you've got haev a sit down with yourself.
and last but no least: EMO. Emotional music. it sounsd good huh? unfortunately its not. all music from classical to metal and everything in between has emotion. music lives off emotion. why then should there be a genre devoted to it. simple. emo music is sooo sappy and over the top it needed its own category to weep by itself in. Music is meant to show you something about yourself you didnt know before; its jsut like literature or poetry. but when an artist or a band goes out of their way to make it sad and dreary they've lost sight of making good music and are jsut trying to appeal to a specific demographic (with some help form labels). i dotn need you to be sad so screw.
good music is timeless. will sum 41, blink 182, the dashboard confessional, or any of these new age bands be around in 10, 20 30 years? id put my money on no. feel free to disagree/agree or jsut comment and ill do my best to defend myself. i might have opened your eyes and who knows you might open mine.
and with that said...
original music lasts forever: zeppelin, hendrix, the stones, AC/DC, the beatles, SRV, the doors, Metallica-- they all defined a sound that no one could copy no matter how hard they tried. i could go through each and tell you what they changed how and why, and how others have failed to beat them. and thats the test of music, and time.
if your poppy emo punk band its still huge and selling records in 20 years call me ill be more than happy to admit im wrong. till then we shall see... | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Stevie Ray | | Subject: | winter yay! | | Time: | 05:31 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/hyper.gif) crazy |
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| Winter is here boys and girls
here's a few pictures from the cruise i was on last year. it was december when this happened. it was hot there. so much for the summer, heres to the winter
( Pics from the cruise ) | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Thornley - easy come | | Subject: | here we go again | | Time: | 12:56 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/bouncy.gif) pumped up |
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| so its sunday and im bored. school really sucks and it kicked my ass last week sleep wise but i made it through so im clear now. im not in regualr school mode yet which is basically getting a max of 5 hours of sleep a night. that blows
but ive started the year actually doing most of my homework which is key cuz i dont ahve to worry during the dday. its also key because i dont have lunch anymore because Mr. Smith somehow got me to audit AP Music Theory which is basically i take the class but dont get graded. good because i learn music and it wont tank my average bad becuase i have no free time during the day. i have wayy too much going on this year. we will see if i can manage to stay afloat.
other than school my weekend was pretty sweet. friday was a epic battle at pluta with groovy t slips jp dave and ben. good times all around (except when groovy gave me a charlie horse with bbs from point blank).
saturday started as bummer cuz hitler wouldnt let me drive to NY to see risa. im going through remission from a lack of lovin but hopefully next week i can make it down. sign up below if you want in. anyway i ended up hangin with some ncds girls and watched the girl next door w/ them oj and daly. pretty boring but i ahvent seen any of them in a while so it was good to see them. they are all big partiers now which is a bummer cuz they are obsessed but o well im not gonna preach.
also I GOT A CELL PHONE AT LAAST!! ive been asking for one since i was a freshmen and now as a senior i finally got one. i have to thank my brother for asking for one because my rents like him more so for his bday he got one and thus i had to get one. hooray... i guess... but anyway the #s 617-740-7887 so feel free to call me.
i guess thats all for now. later | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | SRV - Little Wing (a.k.a. best song ever) | | Subject: | school's in | | Time: | 10:17 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/yawn.gif) tired |
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| well id never thought id ever say this ever under any circumstances barring mortal danger or the influence of some substance, but school is back in session, and so far it hasnt been that bad. this is after one period, mind you, and it was probly my best class with an awesome teacher, but still even walking around school during this study i feel like i own the place all of a sudden. its a nice new feeling.
i didnt think being a senior would feel like anything, but warm and fuzzy seems to be the prominant feeling, along with sick to my stomach from too much pizza (and an early morning for school?) but its deffinately different being respected and looked up to by everyone else.
the times are a changing however. i remember when i was a 7th grader, and if a senior looked at me i fled in terror for fears of being put to the 'couch of pain' today it seems like these little punk think they can waltz right in and run things. damn kids. damn that makes me feel old though. im complaining about what little kids are like now. way to heady for this early in the morning.
anyway being a senior seems to have finally hit me, and in a year being a freshem will probly hit me ten times harder. i cant wait though. so hears to the year ahead. that we all make it through alive, happy, and better than ever.
no regrets. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | none for once | | Subject: | here goes nothing | | Time: | 09:52 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/sad.gif) drained |
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| | well the first round of this live journal thing failed pretty pathetically. didnt have too much luck with keeping a constant post stream or having very uplifting joyful posts to brighten up those cloudy days, but i was wicked bored and figured why not resurrect it and see what good i can do with it. might as well give it a try and use it to procrastinate in the upcoming school year. thus, for all intensive purposes, i am back (and better than ever?) and hopefully now i can give everyone a real glimpse of whats happening in the life of chris. so here goes nothing. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
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